secret oktober

human

2009-02-04T12:52:00.001+08:00

pay my respects to grace and virtue
send my condolences to good
give my regards to soul and romance
they always did the best they could
and so long to devotion,
you taught me everything I know
wave good bye, wish me well
you gotta let me go

environmental

2009-01-22T17:16:00.001+08:00

Hello, I'm Severn Suzuki speaking for E.C.O. - The Environmental Children's Organisation.

We are a group of twelve and thirteen-year-olds from Canada trying to make a difference:
Vanessa Suttie, Morgan Geisler, Michelle Quigg and me. We raised all the money ourselves to come six thousand miles to tell you adults you must change your ways. Coming here today, I have no hidden agenda. I am fighting for my future.

Losing my future is not like losing an election or a few points on the stock market. I am here to speak for all generations to come.

I am here to speak on behalf of the starving children around the world whose cries go unheard.

I am here to speak for the countless animals dying across this planet because they have nowhere left to go. We cannot afford to be not heard.

I am afraid to go out in the sun now because of the holes in the ozone. I am afraid to breathe the air because I don't know what chemicals are in it.

I used to go fishing in Vancouver with my dad until just a few years ago we found the fish full of cancers. And now we hear about animals and plants going exinct every day -- vanishing forever.

In my life, I have dreamt of seeing the great herds of wild animals, jungles and rainforests full of birds and butterfilies, but now I wonder if they will even exist for my children to see.

Did you have to worry about these little things when you were my age?

All this is happening before our eyes and yet we act as if we have all the time we want and all the solutions. I'm only a child and I don't have all the solutions, but I want you to realise, neither do you!

You don't know how to fix the holes in our ozone layer.

You don't know how to bring salmon back up a dead stream.

You don't know how to bring back an animal now extinct.

And you can't bring back forests that once grew where there is now desert.

If you don't know how to fix it, please stop breaking it!

Here, you may be delegates of your governments, business people, organisers, reporters or poiticians - but really you are mothers and fathers, brothers and sister, aunts and uncles - and all of you are somebody's child.

I'm only a child yet I know we are all part of a family, five billion strong, in fact, 30 million species strong and we all share the same air, water and soil -- borders and governments will never change that.

I'm only a child yet I know we are all in this together and should act as one single world towards one single goal.

In my anger, I am not blind, and in my fear, I am not afraid to tell the world how I feel.

In my country, we make so much waste, we buy and throw away, buy and throw away, and yet northern countries will not share with the needy. Even when we have more than enough, we are afraid to lose some of our wealth, afraid to share.

In Canada, we live the privileged life, with plenty of food, water and shelter -- we have watches, bicycles, computers and television sets.

Two days ago here in Brazil, we were shocked when we spent some time with some children living on the streets. And this is what one child told us: "I wish I was rich and if I were, I would give all the street children food, clothes, medicine, shelter and love and affection."

If a child on the street who has nothing, is willing to share, why are we who have everyting still so greedy?

I can't stop thinking that these children are my age, that it makes a tremendous difference where you are born, that I could be one of those children living in the Favellas of Rio; I could be a child starving in Somalia; a victim of war in the Middle East or a beggar in India.

I'm only a child yet I know if all the money spent on war was spent on ending poverty and finding environmental answers, what a wonderful place this earth would be!

At school, even in kindergarten, you teach us to behave in the world. You teach us:

not to fight with others,

to work things out,

to respect others,

to clean up our mess,

not to hurt other creatures

to share - not be greedy.

Then why do you go out and do the things you tell us not to do?

Do not forget why you're attending these conferences, who you're doing this for -- we are your own children. You are deciding what kind of world we will grow up in. Parents should be able to comfort their children by saying "everyting's going to be alright" , "we're doing the best we can" and "it's not the end of the world".

But I don't think you can say that to us anymore. Are we even on your list of priorities? My father always says "You are what you do, not what you say."

Well, what you do makes me cry at night. You grown ups say you love us. I challenge you, please make your actions reflect your words. Thank you for listening

3am

2009-01-18T18:27:00.002+08:00

i'm gettin' used to my 3am wake-up call. it's just another day at work. and many more such days.

i'm looking forward to CNY. the best time to get my income supplements. i'm struggling to get by with 400 month. i think i might qualify for government financial assistance.

2008-11-29T22:07:00.000+08:00

Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?

-trainspotting

Not alone

2008-04-02T20:23:00.005+08:00

Life is getting harder day by day
And I don't know what to do, what to say
And my mind is growing weak every step I take
It's uncontrollable. Now they think I'm fake, yeah

Cos I'm not alone, no, no, no
I'm not alone, no, no, no
I'm not alone

And I, I get on the train on my own
And my tired radio keeps playing tired songs
And I know that there's not long to go
Oh, and all I wanna do I just go home

People rip me for the clothes I wear
Every day just seems to be the same
They just swear
They just don't care...

driving lessons

2008-04-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

Just learn vertical parking today. It's got to be the hardest part of driving i must say. At least the directional change lot was much spacious and easier to deal with. And i'm doing parallel parking tmr. Actually, the poles are quite cheat. You don't get such markings in reality. Well, I think the whole course is almost complete...just that the test date sucks. 25 june. exactly3 mths after ftt. i don't know what the damn traffic police is doing. by then i would have even forgotten how to change gears. WTF

<---See the video. Danny Jones is that good! Vocals, guitar, harmonica.

Bill Gates

2008-03-24T20:47:00.004+08:00

Here are some of the interesting facts i saw on the Net about Bill Gates. This guy is nuts.

1 . Bill Gates earns US$250 every SECOND, that's about US$20 Million a DAY and US$7.8 Billion a YEAR!

2. If he drops a thousand dollar, he won't even bother to pick it up cos' the 4 seconds he picks it, he would've already earned
it back.

3. The US national debt is about 5.62 trillion, if Bill Gates were to pay the debt by himself; he will finish it in
less then 10 years.

4. He can donate US$15 to everyone on earth but still be left with US$5 Million for his pocket money.

5. Michael Jordan is the highest paid athlete in US. If he doesn't drink and eat, and keeps up his annual income i.e. US$30 Million, he'll have to wait for 277 years to become as rich as Bill Gates is now.

6. If Bill Gates was a country, he would be the 37th richest country on earth.

7. If you change all of Bill Gate's money to US$1 notes, you can make a road from earth to moon, 14 times back and forth. But you have to make that road non-stop for 1,400 years, and use a total of 713 BOEING 747 planes to transport all the money.

8. Bill Gates is 40 this year. If we assume that he will live for another 35 years, he has to spend US$6.78 Million per day to finish all his money before he can go to heaven.

9.If Microsoft Windows' users can claim US$1 for every time their computers hang because of Microsoft Windows, Bill Gates will be bankrupt in 3 years!

after the job

2008-03-21T21:12:00.004+08:00

seems that i don't have much free time even after quitting my job. I've been thinking hard the whole week about university courses. i guess engineering's my higher education and career path , so it wasn't a big fuss. I'm figuring out the scholarships to try: it wouldn't harm after all. But filling in the forms are really troublesome, and having to write mini essays on silly questions is worse. This occupied most of my time during the week, except when i was at ubi learning driving.

I think the most important thing next week is to send mr. kwek the referee's report on monday and mail it quickly to NUS. there are some deadlines you must never miss. Haha, and i'm going for the SPF overseas scholarship talk tomorrow although i don't know why i'm going, since
1) I didn't apply for it
2) I didn't apply for a overseas uni
3)My NS enlistment is pretty screwed (if u know what i mean)
4) Am I good enough?
well, at least there is free food. better than nothing.

lastly, here are pictures of the fantastic people i worked with at the airport. It was a wonderful experience with some really exciting times. Great people, Great environment, Great food. airport's the best.

Just My Luck

2008-03-11T23:05:00.004+08:00

after getting the a level results, i am at another major crossroad of my life. i can't decide on a university course and whether i should try out any scholarships. The 4As was quite unexpected, but i dropped H3 Chem so it might have just effectively killed off my chances of getting an overseas scholarship, especially when competing against the likes of RJ and HC. I was talking to serhua and she was telling me to try no matter what. it reminded me of the typical David vs Goliath encounter (well, Barnsley knocked Liverpool and Chelsea out the the FA Cup), and perhaps gave me a glimmer of hope. Local bond scholarships are quite pointless for me too, so the bond-free ones are the most viable option now.

Back to the topic of university course, i was initially heading towards engineering, until i went for the NTU open house and the bald head who was giving the engineering talk totally turned me off. I was more appealed to business and accountancy after the presentation, and i'm seriously considering whether i should try something new in university. Hopefully the NUS Open House this weekend will give me a greater view and enable me to make one of the most important decisions in my life...

Now to less stressful stuff: i'm quitting my ICA job at the end of the week. it was seriously too boring and although it was easy money i realised it was brain-numbing and pointless. Being jobless would mean more free time again and i can concentrate on my driving lessons and train hard for my taekwondo black belt. I really hope i can get both done before i enter NS. and of course settle all the university admission crap.

I'll Be OK

2008-02-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

McFly

When everything is going wrong
And things are just a little strange
It's been so long now
You've forgotten how to smile.
And overhead the skies are clear
But it still seems to rain on you,
And your only friends all have
Better things to do.

When your down and lost
And you need a helping hand
When your down and lost
Along the way
Just tell yourself
I'll be OK

no school?

2008-01-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

how come i don't have school today? and tomorrow? and the day after? and...

it feels kinda weird.

1/1/2008

2008-01-01T15:05:00.000+08:00

happy new year.

it has been a very testing year. studies, soccer and stuff. I'm glad i survived them all. It's all in the past now, so I'm just looking forward to the new year. NS should be one of the most important milestones coming up.

poker and blackjack the whole night but i still can't shut my eyes properly. people drink alcohol and sleep like pigs. but i drink alcohol and get insomnia. I was trying to sleep from 9 plus am but jiaying called at 11.30 and i can't sleep after that. so i don't think there's overnight for me tonight. age's catching up.

and yea, poker is an intellectual game. better than playing with rubbish cubes or Japanese number puzzles and other shit.

Bleeding Love

2007-12-27T11:15:00.000+08:00

Jamie Scott & The Town does a really great cover of "Bleeding Love" by Leona Lewis. This guy might just be the next big thing.

manual labour

2007-12-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

i wondered who invented the gearbox. he drives people crazy with his half-clutch ****. no wonder people nowadays just go automatic. it's been rather difficult trying to master the clutch pedal during practical lesson. my car stalled a few times cos' i released the clutch too fast.

steering is also quite dumb, you have to turn the steering wheel twice to make a 90 degrees turn. if Formula 1 cars work like that, Lewis Hamilton's hands will be tied up in knots after the race. i think my progress is quite fast, considering I'm picking up manual transmission. too bad i can't go on the road yet to try some gear shifting. my BTT is on 14 jan, although i think i'll still pass if they gave me one now.

btw, i got a job at ICA together with ruiyang. work's starting in January at changi airport t3. i guess it's gonna be a nice experience. the pay is abit sucky though, and i don't intend to elaborate on it. i think the most important thing is that i found something to get rid of my boredom.

study again

2007-12-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

I'm going back to school. well, driving school. it's my first theory lesson tomorrow at the comfort delgro driving centre. it's called e-trial test but actually i don't know what the hell it is. i just know it's damn expensive. maybe i'll start reading abit next morning and hopefully grasp some stuff. there's no time tonight for any studying cos' it's super sunday!! i can't believe Manchester United is leading Liverpool by a goal to nil. that's it for now, I'm going back to Anfield.

2007-12-13T09:51:00.000+08:00

Some meet in the strangest places
Some meet in the place that they work in
Some meet in their own backyard

Some say it was love at first sight
Some say that they never could imagine
Some say that they’d find the right one

Some meet at the supermarket
Some meet on the summer vacation
Some meet at the local bar

Some say it was meant to be them
Some say they’ve waited for a long
time
Some say that they found the right one

Some meet cause they like each other
Some meet for a little bit of lovin’
Some meet in their father’s car

Some say they’re getting married
Some believe in trust and understanding
They say that they find the right one

There is this one song I can’t stop in my head
And I keep on going on and it’s making me stronger
One song I can’t stop in my head
And it makes me feel good so I can hold on much longer

holiday's over

2007-12-12T18:37:00.000+08:00

it's been a rather busy week. SDD, post-prom party at mox bar and next morning i was on a flight to Taipei with my family. it sucks during daytime. museums, parks, shrines and all those cultural stuff really bore me to death. but when it turns dark, it all comes to life. the night markets there really rock. and considering i was staying at ximending (their own version of orchard road), it was darn fun at night. street food, nice clothes, pretty girls...Taipei really comes to life at night. got to taste the usual shilin street food like the chicken cutlet, oyster mee sua and also some other great stuff. too bad i missed the man united match where Giggs scored his 100th league goal...ESPN there is in Chinese and only shows basketball day and night. class chalet was canceled so i didn't have to rush there after the flight back. slept a lot and i feel recharged for the challenges that lie ahead. it's back to reality which means studying for my basic theory test and getting' a job.

Devils Crash

2007-11-25T10:56:00.000+08:00

yesterday's match with mungen portugal ended 2-2..against some cjc team. the synthetic pitch at mjc was scotching hot. and my plastic tunit was getting my toes burnt. literally. by half-time i was sitting in the sink trying to cool my toes and undo the damage. i played left-back for the whole first-half...wanted to sub out but just carried out. i was breathless and dying when the ref blew the half-time whistle. my fitness is really hopeless now.....i played about the 10 mins in the second half, up front. quite slack but no opportunity to score. the game was a reminder of the amount of work i need to put it to attain at least half the fitness level i had during the season.

the crappy ended with manchester united crashing to a 1-o defeat to bolton. totally wasted my time watching the match. no rooney, no ronaldo, no vidic. hardly a single chance for united. disappointing. but still credit to gary megson and his team. the giant killers are back

a long day

2007-11-22T18:59:00.000+08:00

i just received a big piece news today. it wasn't totally unexpected. i already had myself prepared for the worst...but it's just the magnitude of the impact of the issue. i trying my best to remain unaffected, so i did something else to numb myself. and it's expensive! i signed up for the driving course. oh god, it cost a bomb. something to do with oligopolies and price fixing. i think theory's no problem but learning manual is gonna take some serious effort. my Basic theory test is on 14 Jan, and i signed up for 5 sessions round the circuit. around 60 each. jiaying told me no need so much. just need 1 session. the customer service bitch was trying to rip me off i think...heartless profit-maximising firms.

back to a more serious note, i think it's really hard keeping secrets. especially personal things that really affect you. it's like bottling everything up and then risk blowing up the whole thing. life's fragile and sometimes things are really out of our control. i just hate to resign to fate.

The End

2007-11-19T22:16:00.001+08:00

physics mcq. last paper. i can't be bothered. just chill :)

Don't Worry Be Happy

2007-11-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

I come across this on youtube. it's amazing i managed to find it. was one of my most favourite singapore productions. i also watched it on TV as a kid. looking at the video really reminds me of the good old days.

La La Lie

2007-11-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

Man Utd style

2007-11-11T18:07:00.001+08:00

When i earn money i will do up my room- Man Utd style. it's gonna cost a lot, but my room will be like a trip to old trafford. here's what i'm gonna buy:

Sir Matt Busby Way wall plate

Inflatable chair

Man Utd mousepad and mouse

piggy bank

the 1999 champions league final winning goal

Man Utd door name plate

Wall clock

wallpaper

Bedsheet

2007-11-11T12:15:00.000+08:00

my mum wants me to learn driving after the exams. fully sponsored so i don't mind. i might just be the next Lewis Hamilton. after i get my license, i can zoom around in my father's Honda civic. like in need for speed:underground. it will be great.

Mid-season break

2007-11-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

I'm only half-way through the A Levels but this good break of 5 days makes FM irresistible. done nothing for the past 2 days except work my way up the ranks..into the hall of fame. 2 days,2 seasons. too bad i missed out on the Spanish cup with Valencia. knocked out by Barcelona. other than that, I've won everything possible.

right now, i'm starting work on Econs, football managing will be put on hold. come the end of A Level, i will be breathing down Sir Alex Ferguson's neck and overtake him as the best manager in the world.

Corny headlines

2007-11-03T12:56:00.000+08:00

In case you're Juande-ring ...

David Ngiau
Deputy Sports Editor
david@mediacorp.com.sg

I FIND myself actually looking forward to headlines, puns and jokes that are so bad that you cringe.

So do most of you, I suspect. You don't soon forget those headlines and the irritation factor does work. And we keep reading.

Earlier this week I came across a headline in one of London's many free newspapers available at the tube stations that was so horrible that I had to share it with as many friends as I could, much to their irritation.

Now, I'd like to share it with you.

Beleaguered Tottenham Hotspur had just thrown away a lead and lost 2-1 to Blackburn. "Spurs left Juande-ring how they lost the plot," screamed one headline.

Ah, yes, I can still hear the groans. But wait, there's more.

Not so bad was this one from The Sun on Wednesday, "Juande at a time".

The British tabloids are also particularly fond of using players' nicknames, to disastrous effect. Yakubu helped Middlesbrough to a win at Derby earlier this week, and one headline read: "Rams lock horns but Yak wins it." And from Thursday's Mirror, looking ahead to Saturday's massive clash between Arsenal and Manchester United: "High Roon for Wayne."

Two of the worst Rooney headlines from the past few years: "Roo can bank on me, boss" and "Many Happy Rooturns".

A few years ago, Holland coach Marco van Basten took Chelsea's Jose Mourinho to task over his treatment of winger Arjen Robben. The headline in The Sun: "Basten's blasten for Jose".

Also from that same tabloid: about two years ago: "You're a Mour-on, Jose".

Yes, I actually had those old headlines written down somewhere, so bad were they that I never wanted to let myself forget them. But I'm wondering how many of you out there feel the same way?

Don't be shy, let us know. Especially if you see a boring headline in our sports pages and think you could do much better.

There are limits, of course. Headlines like "Roo can bank on me, boss" are fine in other papers but not here.

A couple of years back, when United signed Dong Fangzhuo and Nicky Butt was upset with not getting enough first-team action, I suggested to the editor a cheeky headline.

It never saw print and I leave it to your imagination what I had conjured up. It was not particularly tasteful, but it was good for a laugh. So even if your headline suggestion is a bit off colour, send that in too, we'd like to hear from you.

It's fine to stray offside once in a while — it keeps the defenders of standards on their toes.

Physics on TV

2007-10-29T17:55:00.000+08:00

my intensive physics revision over the weekend involved alot of TV. learnt alot of stuff on discovery channel and nat geo. exciting programmes like mythbusters should really make my notes ashamed of themselves. and as usual, i learnt some projectile motion stuff from the EPL matches. steven gerrard's freekick shows that you don't really need any vertical velocity to beat the keeper. and nani really have to thank gravity for making his shot dip into the goal. finally, physics do makes sense.

on a more rational note though, i don't really know how to prepare for the physics paper....just hope it won't be too difficult.

Low On Gas

2007-10-25T15:43:00.000+08:00

Productivity's been kind of low these few days. I guess it's because I'm distracted about the things happening around me. things that are happening to me. not really life-changing, but lifestyle-changing. These changes are inevitable, but maybe they came at the wrong time. I'm trying my best to keep these things a minimal distraction to my revision, but sometimes i feel just helpless.

It's Empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're Empty

Must Have Done Something Right

2007-10-14T16:14:00.001+08:00

stranded

2007-10-13T16:16:00.000+08:00

While others have already known their enlistment date and their unit of posting, I'm still stuck in unknown territory. the dumb answering machine just says that my name is not in the current enlistment schedule. luckily, i got through to a rather kind customer service officer, and he told me to wait for the letter. not the letter about enlistment date. it's the letter to tell me to go back to a damn far place called CMPB again. to confirm my PES status. apparently, the doctor who gave me PES B that time didn't do that. a trip down to that place is gonna take up a lot of time. hopefully they'll tell me to go after A Levels. in the meantime, I'll just have to keep checking my mailbox.

2007-10-07T19:15:00.000+08:00

farewell? well, not yet. it's back to school. for remedials.

It's great Manchester United finally broke their 1-0 curse. the 4 goals galore yesterday was simply fantastic. just like the exhilarating side of last season. maybe Fergie's expensive signings are finally coming good.

random: I think i can open a jersey shop.

reflections

2007-09-29T18:28:00.000+08:00

i screwed up chem. a disappointing D. but it was a difficult paper, so i don't feel too bad. there was a bonus A from physics, so i won't complain too much. maths D, still far from my grand target, but i'll keep on improving. I'm on course for a D in economics, and hopefully I'll pass GP. i don't think the grades reflect much, it justs means i have to keep on working hard. the results are hardly ideal, but the prelims was a good workout for me. to prepare me for the great battle. soon, I'll be working like a well-oiled machinery, and bulldoze my way through the A' Levels.

it's the last week of school, before farewell assembly. after that we'll all be in isolation mode. 2 years passed so quickly. it's just unbelievable.
to my mates from 06s55: let's shoot for the stars, raise the bar, grind out our best, climb the ladder of success and bop to the top=)

perseverance is the key

2007-09-18T18:33:00.000+08:00

the greatest enemy is myself. gotta kill my addiction to FM. i can't study for a hour without thinking of the stupid game. trying to figure out potential transfer targets instead of ionic equilibrium. i don't think i can get an A for physics...so chem's the most probable one. but i'm self-destructing. come on addison, save urself

Progress

2007-09-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
I'm going into a head-on collision with disaster

Everyday

2007-09-05T12:14:00.000+08:00

Once in a lifetime
Means there’s no second chance
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can

They say that you should follow
And chase down what you dream
But if you get lost and lose yourself
What does it really mean?

Gonna run
While we´re young
And keep the faith
Everyday

HSM2

2007-09-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

Just finish watching HSM2 online. i don't think it's as nice as the first one. but Vanessa Hudgens is still as hot as ever....

and i wonder where my own Gabriella is

Theme Park at Downtown West

2007-08-30T22:10:00.001+08:00

你的第一

2007-08-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

我只要做你心里的第一
为甚么你眼里却还是犹疑
没有你我只是废墟喔
不稀罕做谁的天下第一
我只想做你心永远的唯一
能不能有这种荣幸
抱紧你

Pen At Work

2007-08-24T22:08:00.000+08:00

The pen is a powerful weapon.

And the greatest fools in the world are daydreamers. Success only come when actions take place after dreams.

Patriotism

2007-08-24T21:25:00.000+08:00

You can't teach a heart where home is.

Patriotism exists in most of us. Some display it more prominently, while others only possess it during times of crisis like war. I think patriotism exists because of our emotional attachments to things that matter to us: family,friends and the society that brought us up. It's not just about defending the country during wartime, but the desire to stay here and contribute to the national community.

It's disheartening to learn of people who will almost run away at the first chance when the country needs them. Though not exactly treason, i believe that every citizen has a moral obligation to fulfill to the state, especially in protecting our country. In Singapore, the state provides for every citizen adequately. We get really cheap subsidized high-quality education till we take education for granted. Everyone has opportunities to succeed. it is only right that we return the favour to the nation when the need arises. For boys, it comes in the form of national service. two years is not a sacrifice or burden if you view it from a positive angle. I know some people will think that i am just crapping some blind useless nationalism stuff, but i also know some people who will agree on my stand.

Being a global citizen doesn't mean that we need to sacrifice our patriotism. When the call of duty sounds, at least i know that some will join me in protecting the state and the people who matter in our lives.

Our obligations to our country never cease but with our lives.
John Adams (1735-1826)

Your Guardian Angel

2007-08-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

小人物的心声

2007-08-06T20:32:00.000+08:00

也许我一个人
不能成就一番大事业
让我尽力贡献一份微薄的力量

也许我自己
不能发出万丈光和亮
但我能为斗室带来足够的光芒

我从来就不在乎
自己不是个大人物
因为平凡也是一种幸福

看到名人总是忙忙碌碌
我的时间由我控制
平凡日子一样会充实

Curtain-Raiser

2007-08-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

i've waited so long for the return of English football after the long summer break. although there were many tournaments like the Copa America,Asia Cup and club friendlies, nothing beats competitive EPL football. it's Man Utd vs Chelsea tonight, playing at Wembley for the Community Shield and i hope it won't be the same dull cup like the previous FA Cup Final between these two teams. it's not likely that Anderson and Hargreaves will play, but i'm hoping nani will make an appearance and give us a glimpse of his potential. Rooney and C. Ronaldo will be back and maybe giggs will play too. too bad scholes is out. hopefully Man Utd will have enough quality to overcome Chelsea.

i'm really looking forward to the start of Manchester United's new campaign. Winning the Champions League will be a bonus, but retaining the domestic league title will be of utmost importance to me. Good luck to the Red Devils.

freefall

2007-07-29T20:49:00.001+08:00

i finally finished watching the entire series of Band of Brothers. reminded me of the tough times i went through in VS NPCC before i became an NCO. all my buddies that went through hell with me, the bonds i forged with them. no matter how tough it was, we always managed to pull through together.

i want to do some parachuting in NS....the airbourne unit in Band of Brothers is just so cool. i've never experienced the adrenaline rush of a freefall. i hope i'll have the chance. i just wonder whether the army has a specialized airborne infantry unit.

No more ESPN/StarSports

2007-07-25T20:05:00.000+08:00

I just read the sports section on The Straits Times, here's one of the articles:

Three EPL channels?
StarHub likely to offer simultaneous live telecasts of Premiership games
By Marc Lim, Sports Correspondent
FIRST the good news: at least two, possibly three, channels of live English Premier League football await fans next season. They can also expect footage from Manchester United, Chelsea and Liverpool's own television networks on a new 24-hour football-only channel. Now, for the not-so-great news: say goodbye to familiar presenters like ESPN StarSports' (ESS) John Dykes and commentators such as Sky Sports' Martin Tyler and Andy Gray. Also out are the exclusive Sky Sports interviews and programmes. StarHub's announcement that it will not rely on ESS for the telecast of English Premier League matches and programmes has received praise as well as criticism from the fans. It revealed on Monday that it would launch a 24-hour channel dedicated solely to the English Premier League when the new season kicks off on Aug 11. It added that Hong Kong-based Goal TV, in association with Dubai's Ten Sports, would produce the pre-match, half-time and post-match shows. Although neither StarHub nor its partners wanted to comment on the programming details, it is believed that fans could be in for a treat of live matches. The company is likely to turn to its own sports channels SuperSports (Ch 22) and SuperSports Plus (Ch 21) to supplement the 24-hour football channel. If it goes ahead with its plans, fans will have the choice of three simultaneous live matches. Last season, fans could choose from only two live matches, one on ESPN and the other on StarSports. However, fans used to the ESS coverage are likely to be disappointed. Tyler - voted the Premier League Commentator of The Decade - and Gray will not be part of StarHub's feed. ESS could feature their commentary because it is Sky Sports' partner. Most of the 15 fans that The Straits Times interviewed greeted StarHub's entry with scepticism. They were especially unhappy that the subscription to StarHub's sports package would be raised from $15 to $25 in October. Only six were not bothered by the change or viewed it with optimism. Said civil servant Kevin Ang, 31: 'I am deeply disappointed. Football for me is not only about watching the match, but also about getting the analysis and views. 'John Dykes, Martin Tyler and even Shebby Singh made watching the English Premier League matches a joy for the last six years. 'I am not sure if the new set-up can replicate that.' While Goal TV has made a name for itself by securing United and Chelsea TV programmes, it is still untested in producing its own programmes. That is where the five-year-old Ten Sports will lend expertise. It has experience in churning out its own cricket and hockey content in South Asia. Goal TV is likely to produce its programmes in Malaysia. Fans of the ESS programmes, such as Nokia Football Crazy and Football Focus, may also be hit. Although ESPN and StarSports will still be available to StarHub subscribers, these shows may not be allowed to run if they contain English Premier League content. Businessman Robert Teo, 45, however, prefers to see the bright side. He said: 'If StarHub is giving us more live matches, I am all for it, even if it may not have presenters as good as John Dykes and Co. 'Given time, it may get better. Let's wait and see.'

I don't know what the hell Starhub is doing. maybe trying to monopolise everything. Being able to listen to martin tyler and andy gray commentating the EPL matches is really a great pleasure. you might never get such good commentary on other channels, and ESS really does provide good analysis and other good stuff for the viewers. it's diificult to replace the extensive EPL coverage by John Dykes and Co. if the new football channels proposed by starhub isn't as good or better than ESS's coverage, it's hard to justify the price increase. i might even consider cancelling the starhub subscription....i'm gonna miss John Dykes and his team of pundits. especially shebby singh's funny accent. and the PP Land advertisement. =(

Band of Brothers

2007-07-25T17:02:00.001+08:00

I've watched three episodes of Band of Brothers the past 2 days. it's really a nice show...it takes a form of a series, which differentiates itself from normal war movies, and so it's really detailed. the action all seem so real. i'm watching it on my computer, from this website. it's hosted on VEOH, so u can also download it onto your PC with a veoh player. i'm seriously addicted to it, and i think i can finish all 10 episodes by friday.

'From this day to the ending of the world, But we in it shall be remember'd; We few, we happy few, we Band of Brothers; For he to-day that sheds his blood with me Shall be my brother'

Feeling the moment slip away

2007-07-22T17:32:00.000+08:00

It has been a tough week. All the things that happened made me feel that my life was on a slide. My social life needs a restructuring exercise, and i will not elaborate too much on that.

Things started going really bad after Friday afternoon. after i had my haircut with j.loh, i went home and felt a bit feverish. i thought everything will be fine soon. but the horrendous feeling lasted pretty long and all i could do was sleep.

Saturday started out fine, i was feeling much better after the long sleep, and i was anticipating my game for Mungen Portugal in the afternoon, but the rain didn't stop. it was canceled. Disappointing. i really needed that 90 minutes of football to help me forget my troubles.

Since i had nothing to do for the whole day, i decided to go for the taekwondo lesson i hadn't attended for ages. i was very rusty and wasn't in the right physical condition..but the instructor still made me go through 4 rounds of sparring. i was in a total wreck after the lesson. my left foot felt broken(it's still sore and i can't walk properly), i got a kick in my stomach, my arms are bruised. it really sums up my week.

i hope Monday will be a fresh start. i know my physical pain will be lesser but the other troubles will remain. i guess it's best to ignore them and get on with life. i just need to treasure the real friends i have now, both in VS and VJ. these are the people who matter the the most. by the way, j.loh gave me the nice key chain which says "There are big ships and small ships, but the best ship of all is our friendship." Soon, the clouds will go and the sun will shine.

This song, Feeling the moment by Feeder, really reflects my thoughts. Here's the lyrics.

The Chicken Pie Blogger

2007-07-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

this is really hilarious. visit xiaxue's blog. take a look at her list of the 7 most disgusting bloggers in the local blogosphere. Steven Lim was on her list and he made a really funny video reply to her. it's like a rather childish quibble between two losers, but it still makes a good laugh. especially the video.

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Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crash the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight

Life in a shithole

2007-07-18T20:53:00.000+08:00

i don't give a damn anymore. living in a shithole. my life now revolves around self-centered bastards(except a few loyal friends). i'm been bottling in up and i can't stand it anymore. the ticking time bomb has finally exploded.
Life in VS was never so complicated. never so messy. never so disgusting. Everyone treats one another like enemies for no fuckin' reason. Maybe I'm partly to blame. Perhaps i'm too simple-minded, too used to the simple life in VS. but why can't people just put their guard down and stop treating one another with animosity. thinking of it, i truly never felt the Victorian spirit in VJC. it didn't start out right and probably won't end right.

that's it. I'll just fucking mind my own business..
can't wait to complete my A levels, pack up and leave for good.

Lie Detector

2007-07-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

After being lied to blatantly by my good friend for so many times, I've learn a bit on detecting lies...i'm no longer a victim of deception and scam. Here's a few tips for detecting lies.

1)Not answering a question directly. When given a few options, try to "escape" by rejecting all the options and making his own theory.

2)Using humor or sarcasm to avoid a subject.

3)Using an object (e.g.handphone) as a barrier against him and yourself, in order to try to distract himself and not get stuck in a conversation.

4)The most common-Avoiding eye contact

5)Forced/unnatural facial expression when answering questions. e.g.stiff smile

6)Most importantly, having intelligence sources to gather evidence.

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We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away

simple or hard

2007-07-15T11:43:00.000+08:00

"Football is simple but the hardest thing to do is playing simple football."
-Johan Cryuff

Signal Fire

2007-07-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

come across one of snow patrol's videos. the song's not bad, the video's even better. it's a really cute play by the kids. especially the Doctor Octopus.

Cooking As A Career?

2007-07-11T17:16:00.000+08:00

I was just thinking what i would be doing after the A'Levels. There will be so much time to spare and the best way to spend the time is to learn something new. I was thinking of what to learn.something that is useful and practical, something that will help me get through life.

and i realise cooking is a good option. not every man can cook well, and my mum always says that girls nowadays can't cook. or they don't have the desire to learn. that's why she says learning to cook a proper meal is important....I'll have to live on my own someday. and i think occasionally cooking for a woman to eat is a very good way of impressing her. Jiahao always says that "A hungry man is an angry man". so i guess being able to satisfy the palate of others will be a good thing.

but learning how to cook will be difficult. i gotta go beyond cooking instant noodles and frying simple omelettes. i used to screw up in the home econs cooking class in VS, but cooking's fun. u get to be creative, you get to control the situation. i think good food is priceless, especially good homecooked food. cooking seems like a great idea, not as a career, maybe as a hobby will be fine.

The Secret I Cannot Tell

2007-07-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

Jay Chou's new song, called Secret (不能说的秘密). The first hit of his upcoming album and also soundtrack of a new movie which is directed, produced and acted by the singer himself.

Movie Madness

2007-07-02T14:44:00.001+08:00

i just finished watching 300 on some online video website. so many latest movies to watch, i duno which one to choose. also watched mr bean's holiday and die hard 4.0 yesterday. even before it's released in singapore. =)

can't believe the post-exam "holidays" are passing so quickly. it's back to school tmr, and maybe getting back the dreaded results. Prelims not far away, there's not much time left for me to improve on my academic work. i've gotta start mugging like a dog again, sooner rather than later...

haven't really played soccer or ran for a month plus. two games in two days has really taken a toil on my body. saturday was a 11-a-side testimonial match against the year1s. the game was only 30 mins of two halves, yet i was super tired already, having muscle strains all over my body. maybe it was because we didn't do warm-up. like in the old days..and yesterday played soccer at VS with my classmates and some china scholars. holy shit, jiaying(our female goalkeeper) was impressive, playing better than someone (He-who-must-not-be-named). and yea shit, my blisters from the previous day burst. that's the price to pay for having such a long break from sports.

the next break could be very long from now, and i better cherish every moment before i return to school tomorrow. life's like that.

Post-Exams

2007-06-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

it feels good to get the common test over and done with. There's so much spare time on my hands now, and i don't know what to do.
I spent my morning watching copa America( Argentina destroyed U.S.A), and headed down to bedok library, trying to find books about sir Alex Ferguson. damn, all loaned out. too bad, i had to settle for the biography of kenny dalglish and the autobiography of Gazza (Gascoigne). And i also got another book titled: Red Mist-Roy Keane and the football civic war. i saw the name roy keane and just borrowed, and i don't know what the book is about...maybe about irish football.
i read a few chapters of the book about dalglish. he had an impressive career in scotland(celtic) and in england(liverpool). Although i'm not a liverpool fan, i found this phrase in the book which was quite interesting. It goes like this: There are five countries in Great Britain-England,Scotland,Wales,Ireland and Merseyside. It was through this book that i learnt so much about the history of British football.

bakc to reality, after my visit to the library, i went to orchard cineleisure to watch goal2 watch ruiyang. our enjoyment was disrupted by a crazy bunch of angmohs making a scene in the cinema, and the stupid guy beside him who didn't know how to enjoy a movie properly. I feel gutted and i rather not talk about it anymore. well, the movie was kind of direct, but very impressive as a football movie. i guess any football fan will surely like it. the movie ended with some questions unanswered. perhaps to entice the audience into watching the final part of the trilogy. Santiago Munez gained some(his mother and stepbrother) but also lost some(Roz and agent Glen Foy). Just like in life....

Bright Idea

2007-06-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

Did somebody tell you what I couldn't tell you?
I hope they did.
(I hope they didn't.)

Will I learn to regret it, or should I forget it?
Whatever this is- it feels electric.

You shot me a sweet look,
Gave me your Year Book,
Told me to sign...
It was a signal.

But I couldn't find the words.
I just couldn't find the nerve.
As usual.

Here's my Bright Idea:
I'll just disappear !

Now you're in Hollywood (right in my neighborhood)-
Things are really looking up for you...
An army of managers and lots of pretty boys lining up
just to meet with you.

I could've SWORN that it you that I bumped to just the other day
at the record store.

But I still don't have a clue.
I just couldn't talk to you.
As usual.

Here's my Bright Idea:
I'll just disappear !

So I come to your Event
in my well-rehearsed mystique,
I show up an hour late-
but I've been ready for a week,
Then you float into the hallway
like some neon silhouette,
I'm slowly losing oxygen
and my hands are soaking wet,
All the cameras and reporters
piling up on one another
just to get a look at you,
They all want an interview,
Then I make my move,
push them out of my way,
But I still just don't know what to say...

Goal 2 Release Date

2007-06-26T20:09:00.000+08:00

Goal2 is gonna be released on 19 July. I've waited a long time for this. This movie has been delayed for so long, and it is taking so long to open in Singapore. Damn, i can't wait to watch Santiago Munez. Yea, it seems that screwup Gavin Harris also join Real Madrid.

The Sad Life of Bainsey

2007-06-23T22:01:00.000+08:00

I dreamt that this holiday
I was gonna run far away
and try find a brand new place
to hide from the study craze

everyday my vision
was blurred by the television
until some divine intervention
helped me to get back on track

So this is the sad life of Bainsey
Running away from books
and being so damn lazy
before tragedy strikes
and things get so crazy

I found out motivation was what i lacked
from the flashbacks that i had
the days i used to had my touch
which i lost so much

Pull out my notes
i starting working on my math
from Progression to Integration
and lastly, distribution
i wonder is this my retribution
for not doing what i was told

So this is the sad life of Bainsey
Running away from books
and being so damn lazy
before tragedy strikes
and things get so crazy

All the stuff i've learnt
could probably earn me so much money
so much that i had them burnt
I thought I flew to NYSE
to practise my economic policies

as the days turn to nights
i was behind time
i couldn't turn off the lights
for it would be a crime

So this is the sad life of Bainsey
Running away from books
and being so damn lazy
before tragedy strikes
and things get so crazy

I had to move faster
Increase my speed and velocity
They are quite different things
yet somehow linked

The North Pole is actually the South
if you get what i mean
It's physics i'm talkin' about
Something i've just seen

So this is the sad life of Bainsey
Running away from books
and being so damn lazy
before tragedy strikes
and things get so crazy

Finally, the last lesson
is a chemistry session
my bestest subject ever
which makes me feel clever, or cleverest
this was all i needed
to have the demon defeated

So this is the sad life of Bainsey
Running away from books
and being so damn lazy
before tragedy strikes
and things get so crazy

And this is the sad life of Bainsey, on holiday

Beauty In Ugly

2007-06-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

She's so big hearted,
But not so remarkable,
Just an ordinary humble girl
Expecting nothing as we're made to think.

It's a pretty person's world
But you are beautiful and you better go show it
Go look again, you gotta be true to your own
If you really wanna go to the top
Do you really wanna win?
Don't believe in living normal,
Just to satisfy demand

Well if you wanna get free
And if you wanna do the passionate thing
And if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart
You should own your name and stand up tall
And get real and see the beauty in ugly

Mr. A-Z

Leighton Baines

2007-06-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

My favourite leftback of the moment is Leighton Baines. He is a young English defender who has immense potential. He had a few great seasons playing at Wigan. Baines is a traditional leftback who is strong with his left and loves to move up the flank to join in attacks.

Baines is already a first-choice leftback in the England U-21 team. He looks like a future star and i believe he will have a great England career when the likes of Ashley Cole and Wayne Bridge are past their prime. I think Baines is worth a lot more than upcoming youngster Gareth Bale, who is unproven in the Premiership.

In an interview with FourFourTwo, Baines said he started out as a left winger, which explains his great attacking ablilty. He knows his weak with headers, so he practises more on it. His right foot is used only for balance(just like me), so he also works really hard on it.

Look out for Baines, along with players like Micah Richards,Leroy Lita,Ashley Young and James Milner who are the stars of England in the coming years.

Here's a clip displaying his powerful left foot:

New Look

2007-06-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

I was getting bored of the previous template. Fernando Torres doesn't seem interested in coming to Old Trafford anyway. i just did it the simple way. used the default template provided by blogger. not bad actually, i could play around with the options and become my own designer.

Stand

2007-06-11T18:28:00.000+08:00

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless like you’ve lost your fight
But you’ll be alright, you’ll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend till you break
Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life’s like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of canyon with only one way down
Take what you’re given before it’s gone
And start holding’ on, keep holding’ on

-Rascal Flatts

Idling

2007-06-06T22:48:00.000+08:00

Just can't concentrate in my revision work. Sleep in the afternoon, watched roland garros from 5 to now...and i'll continue until 1am. all the sports channel are now showing either wrestling, tennis or golf. so i guess watching tennis is the better choice.
then maybe i'll wait for the england game at 3am. they better don't disappoint. i'm sacrificing my sleep to watch them play some proper football. hopefully mclaren drops lampard.

Mars vs Venus Soundtrack

2007-06-05T14:09:00.000+08:00

ha, i finally found the song that keeps playing in the Mediacorp Channel 8 previous 9pm show, Mars vs Venus. It's called Would You Be There.

MMMBop days

2007-06-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

You have so many relationships in this life
Only one or two will last
You're go through all the pain and strife
Then you turn your back and they're gone so fast
And they're gone so fast
Oh so hold on the ones who really care
In the end they'll be the only ones there
When you get old and start losing your hair
Can you tell me who will still care?
-Hanson

Psycho-metric Test

2007-06-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

One way to waste 4 hours of your life- Participate in a series of cognitive ability and personality tests.
1.General Reasoning Test-
Don't be fooled by its name. The purpose of the test is to make you look at confusing diagrams and try to figure out something. Am i going to be hired by my prospective boss just because i can solve puzzles?
2.Numerical Reasoning Test-
Maths without calculator is disastrous. I realized i can't do simple problem solving without a calculator. But who does mental sums everyday?
3.Verbal Reasoning Test-
Simple MCQ. True,False,Can't Tell. But it's more than just a test of your English. If you don't know the answer, just put "can't tell".
4.Personality Test-
This is just 16PF. Done before. Hopefully this time round, the report will be show a truer reflection of me.

Now it's time to study. For the proper stuff.

super-full

2007-05-29T21:52:00.000+08:00

just had team dinner with the soccer guys. Pakin's leaving tmr afternoon, so it's perhaps his last team dinner here. we ate at seoul garden tampines mall. all the meat and stuff, make me super-full. but shiok la. buffets just rock.
gonna watch supernatural 2 on axn at 10. it's great

always the best

2007-05-28T10:49:00.001+08:00

where's the starting line?

2007-05-27T14:46:00.000+08:00

suck man. i can't get into the study mood. soccer's ended. school's ended. i feel like i've got so much spare time on my hands. I've just burned away about 48 hours or more, slacking around, telling myself i'm gonna start work tomorrow & tomorrow & tomorrow. but it just never comes. holy shit. i can't afford to lose this june holidays away. so much things to sort out. maybe i left the study feeling back in school. maybe i need to go back to school. i need to find it fast. yea, maybe tomorrow.

windtalkers

2007-05-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

watched the movie on TV just now. it was the third time i've seen it. but it's still as exciting as before. and touching. i just love those war movies, like saving private ryan, pearl harbor, we were soldiers, black hawk down and beyond enemy lines. it's not the blood & gore that impresses me, but the true spirit that is shown by the bravery of men in crisis.

weekend is nothing but TV. the eye2 at 10.30

weekend rest

2007-05-12T17:08:00.000+08:00

it's the weekend again. at last i get to rest. tired legs. tired soul. nothing much to do this weekend though. English football is on Sunday night, so i'm just anticipating tonight's the eye2 on channel 8. i think the stupid chem test is just after the weekend break, but i just can't find the spirit to get down to work. i hardly get a rest...why should i waste my time studying for a test that i will fail.

Monday's game against CJC. last group match. i think we are destined to finish second in the table, and meet MJ in the semis. i hope i get to play at least.

Manchester United -06/07 EPL Champions

2007-05-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

As you should know by now, Chelsea's draw with Arsenal last night ensured that the EPL trophy headed back to Old Trafford after two years of dominance by The Blues. It has been the dream of many United fans, including myself for the Red Devils to snatch the trophy back and place it where it belongs. European success is secondary, league dominance is of utmost importance for a great club like United. It has been a wonderful season for United, notching up 28 victories out of 36 games. Currently at 88 points, i'm sure United will hit 90 points with two more games left. Victory against Chelsea at Stamford Bridge would be the icing on the cake. A United win will show the world who deserves to be the champions and serve as a confidence booster ahead of the FA Cup final clash. A United double will increase Chelsea's agony. A season with only the Carling Cup is a serious failure for Mourinho.

For the past season, United have been playing extremely well. I think it was down to their good pre-season training. Just look at how much the team has improved since last season. It seemed like everything would click into gear flawlessly everytime United play. Free flowing, one-touch football plus critical finishing made sure that few teams could match up against the Red Devils.

In defence, Vidic and Ferdinand have been the most consistent pairing in the league. With the two great centre-backs complementing each other, van der Sar only needed to make rare, crucial saves when needed. Evra and Heinze are both quality left-backs competing for the same position. Brown and O'Shea have also stepped up their game when called in to help out. Neville was certainly not missed as United continued their winning streak without him. This shows the quality of United's reserves. No need for big-stars or expensive back-ups to do the job. (that's for Chelsea)

Scholes and Carrick did extremely well in the centre of the park, bringing the ball out of defence and supplying the attack with inch-perfect passes. Giggs has lost his speed but more than make up with is increase in awareness and vicious one-touch passing. He has turned out countless half-chances into great opportunities for his teammates to score. Cristiano Ronaldo, arguably the best player in the world right now has improved so much since last season. His ability in creating chances and applying crucial finishes have allowed United to lead the scoring charts this season. Without a doubt, he is the Man of the season. Nevertheless, Park, Fletcher and Richardson have also contributed when needed. Park grabbed some important goals while Fletcher have put in tireless displays for United. Richardson stepped in well when Giggs when rested. Credit to the lads.

Up front, Saha did well at the start of the season. He notched up numerous goals for the Reds until his injury problems came back again. Luckily, Alan Smith was back again, showing more hunger than before after his horrendous injury last season. Although he is just an average player, his passion has rubbed off his teammates and his contribution to the team cannot be discounted. Rooney had an average season but he can come up with the crucial goals when needed. Solskjaer also had a better season this year, using his experience to guide the younger players.

Overall, this was a very much improved United team that fully deserved the EPL crown. Their hard work has definitely not gone to waste. The FA Cup victory would really mark the start of a great new Manchester United era, and the comeback of the sleeping giant.

Comeback

2007-05-06T18:30:00.000+08:00

ok, my last post was on November 28. you might have thought this blog was dead. it wasn't. i put it into hibernation mode. now, super-boredom has forced me to reopen this. i just needed to type some crap..

it wasn't a very good weekend for me. lost money while "playing responsibly". lost my bets on Man United and Reading. i probably be quite broke for the rest of the week. luckily United won. looks like they have sealed the title. i'm looking forward to Chelsea crashing at the emirates today, and at Old Trafford during mid-week. it's gonna be a helluva clash...the Reds can go marching on.

onto more serious stuff, i'm lagging so much in school work. so hopelessly lost that i don't know where to start from. and there's no definite end to the A Div soccer tournament. when will i start working hard again??

but i won't worry my life away. i was surfing the net when i come across the story behind the song "The Remedy" by Jason Mraz. Actually he wrote it for a friend who was diagnosed with cancer. Thus explaining the lyrics, "We will cure this dirty old disease". The song is about not letting life get you down no matter what happens, and that you shouldn't waste your life worrying all the time, especially if you may not have very long to live. He friend was also born on the "Fourth of July". Check out the song if you don't know what i'm talking about. Jason Mraz is perhaps the most under-rated singer-songwriter of our generation.

Packin' off

2006-11-28T12:58:00.000+08:00

i can't wait for the trip to thailand tomorrow. but i'm too lazy to pack my stuff. there's like so much to bring...my soccer stuff too. it's so troublesome. how i wish i can go shopping on the first day and buy my clothes there. so i don't have to bring any. but the reality is that there's a friendly match right after we touch down in Bangkok. shopping will have to wait. 6 days 5 nights..it's not short, but it's not long either. but one thing's for sure...there'll be training. Tan won't let us go free and easy throughout the tour. he's gonna make sure we train hard. i just hope there'll be enough time to go around bangkok. i didn't pay money to go to a foreign place to train. this will be my last post..till i come back on monday 4dec.

the week

2006-11-25T16:05:00.000+08:00

it's been a rather busy week for me. class chalet and training can't go together. it kills. the chalet deprived me of much needed rest but injected excitement back into my life for the first time since the "holidays" started. it was fun talking cock with everyone.. and doing the RnB BBQ. training was intensive towards the end of the week..thursday was the worst. seemed like triple session to me. today was the last training for the week. monday will be killer double before we go thailand on wednesday. Sa-Tan has turned football into a nightmare.

adidas is holding a year-end sale during the weekend. perhaps i'll go down there to check it out. but i don't really trust adidas anymore. i lost 2 of my freaking tunit studs..can't find it. it's stuck somewhere in the school field. crap stuff.

there's nothing much to do this weekend. just eat,sleep and watch soccer. the big match on sunday. Man Utd vs Chelsea. come on Red Devils!

Left-Back?

2006-11-18T17:56:00.000+08:00

today had a friendly match against the old boys. we played quite well with the new DSA guys just coming in. though fitness a bit suspect. we gotta work hard before we go to Thailand. or the Thais will wallop us. I played the second half as left-back. i didn't know why he put me there. i've never played at the back before in training. so i was a bit unsure of the tactic and all that. had to keep the defence line and also keep watch of the winger on my blind side. quite pressure sia. i would rather play up at left midfield. but i like making some overlapping runs..though they didn't quite materialise. so overall the score was 1-1..Tan was satisfied. but still training will be tougher. The Thais are waiting for us.

Step Up

2006-11-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

had the last PW meeting in school today to hand up I&R and organise the group project file. robert didn't bring file dividers..he brought pieces of junk to paste in our files. luckily the other group had extra dividers...or else i'll slap robert. morning training after that...was pretty tired. but went home quickly and then to tampines mall to catch Step Up with my class. the storyline was "trivial"..i guess the 7 bucks was for the dance moves. quite cool..fusion of old-school & hip-hop. then rushed back to VJ for afternoon session. physical stuff....the last activity was shiok. yea shiok. intervals 12x200m. you will flip after doing it. now i'm just wasting my time at home, there's totally nothing to do.

+F50 Tunit

2006-11-12T09:51:00.000+08:00

Tunit is a pair of beautiful football boots i just received on friday. Let me share with you how amazing it is.

The box was huge. it looked as though i was carrying an XBox around.

though this tunit cost me a bomb, it's a good investment. the studs are exchangable (firm ground,hard ground, and soft ground) and the chasis and body can be changed. so if my tunit spoils, i can jsut get the spare part. unlike other boots, where spoil means buying a new one.

overall, Tunit is a masterpiece. Although the colour wasn't to my liking( there's no choices when u order through school), the boot is light and hopefully durable. you wonder how adidas can come up with such amazing technology to create this magical stuff.

knocked

2006-11-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

i experienced my first injury (on-field) during soccer training. it was 3v1 for warm up, gym session, then match. started off pretty well up front with Nick, but half-way Roland and I went for the ball in the air..and we clashed. my front teeth got smacked, while Roland had a cut on his head. accidents do happen...that's just part of football. PW tomorrow, but before that got training at 8. it's gonna be a hectic day for me. I'm starting to feel that my life is getting fulfilling.

-

2006-10-31T18:48:00.000+08:00

life's so repetitive. wake up, slack, train, go home, slack, sleep...and the cycle goes on. once in a while a PW slot comes in. I can't wait for OP to start, i'm raring to go...get it over and done with.

today's gym work was tiring. some external gym trainer came (all the PE teachers went for some inter-jc staff soccer tournament). means today school got no government. i screwed up the squats and now my back hurts. i'm finding it hard to sit upright..gosh. on a lighter note though, we dunked two guys today, Iqbal and Hazrin. Iqbal is birthday boy...Hazrin was becos' we didn't dunk him last time. the atmosphere among the soccer boys is quite relaxed..we train hard but we also play hard. that's life.

to hell. with PW

2006-10-25T21:01:00.000+08:00

training today was a bore. the rain came at us from neptune court..slowly. while we were starting to do some ballwork. damn we went indoors..and i hate indoor training...supposed to play floorball also..but the sailors intimidated sia..dun let us play. wth. the stupid rain so heavy..i went home drenched. soaked like some sponge. hungry and cold.

a warm bath awaited me at home..followed by dinner. PW had to screw up my day more. now i'm trying to think of something to speak during the OP workshop tmr. that's all for now. i just want to do my part properly.

Kira vs. L

2006-10-24T22:35:00.000+08:00

watched Death Note with J. Loh at Cathay Building just now....we were trying to find theatre 1...no sign of it..actually it was called the 'Grand Cathay'. waste my time. the theatre was high, more like an auditorium...especially with curtains all that. the ads were short...i like it that way.

death note centres on a genius,..ok two. Kira aka Light and 'L'. the movie was easy on the mind (unlike the prestige). the god of death looked cool...and he loves apples like me. perhaps he could give me another one of his notebook. overall i think the movie gets only three stars. but i'll watch the second part..to see what happens between Kira and L.

Well Done

2006-10-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

i'm sure it's a good day for all Man Utd fans...a comfortable 2-0 win over arch-rivals Liverpool is always enjoyable. liverpool didn't play very well, but the Red Devils took the game by the throat, and clinical finishing made the difference. United are rolling forward, while L'pool are crashing back to Earth again..good luck to Pool fans.

i had training this morning..then rushed off to extend my passport at the immigration building..damn i had to wait for 63 pple before me. it was a total waste of time...

i have my afternoon free..but no one seems to be free..everyone's doing PW or something else...i'm bored...maybe i'll go out in the evening. till then.

healthy lifestyle

2006-10-22T18:51:00.000+08:00

alone at home and hungry...i tried to make something up to eat. i went to the kitchen, looked around...i realised all the seasonings & ingredients like soy sauce had something in common. LOW-fat,LOW-salt,LOW-cholestrol etc. damn, i didn't know my mother was such a health freak. or issit just a common Singaporean attitude? Nevermind, i just whipped up fried rice (the simple home economics kind)...& it tasted fine. i'm pleased with myself.

food aside, the only thing worth looking forward is tonight's big RED match, Manchester United vs. Liverpool, live & exclusive from Old Trafford. it's always a massive game between these two sides, and i hope the Red Devils can triumph over Stevie G. & Co, to return back to the top of the league table.

tmr meeting for PW..but i've got training before that, Tan doesn't give a damn about holidays. stupid idiot

improving

2006-10-21T12:28:00.000+08:00

dedicated myself to training this week. even today. although it's a holiday today, had to go back for training..4.8 plus cross-campus. pure physical work. my calf strain is getting worse. hopefully, it'll be better by monday..training again. i'm making full use of every training session to improve my physical and technical aspects. putting in lots of effort to brush up my technical skills. it's gonna be tough making it into the first XI...i'll try though.

the only positive worth mentioning would be yesterday's "class" outing. very little people. i went later cos' i had training while the others were enjoying their full day. watched the prestige. it's defintely worth the money..for me. the script gets five star. it makes you wonder how people can come up with such an interesting plot. time is very precious nowadays...either training or recovering. recovering means entertainment like FM 07 or TV. and hopefully i can catch another m0vie during the weekend...before the training cycle starts again next week. plus PW bothering me again.

waste time

2006-10-17T20:52:00.000+08:00

i think the past 2 days was a waste of time. got back my results on monday..2As 2Es. i'm satisfied. scored 33 for GP essay..hopes it'll be enough to pull me up to an E when i get back compre.
today rot like hell, was at the library with jimmy most of the time. sleepin' or reading Pele's autobiography. he's got an interesting life. full of excitement. unlike mine...

soccer training has been quite boring, cycling is stupid. but i like it. special thanks to my Indonesian friends, for their dedication in setting fires. but cycle until my ass pain. crap

back and forth

2006-10-15T18:07:00.000+08:00

it's been one hell of a week. training was tough as hell, and i lost my saturday too. my legs are still aching..don't think they'll be ready by tomorrow for this week of vicious training.
i went back to VS on friday for 130th Speech Day cum Sec4 Graduation Ceremony. The event belonged more to the Sec 4s than us, the class of '05. nevertheless, it was great to be back in VS and enjoying the warmth of the VS spirit. education in VS was truly "priceless", i couldn't agree more. The Victorian Anthem at the end was thunderous..i've never felt it before so strongly before, in VS or VJ. The atmosphere was amazing. you've got to experience it yourself to know it. Looking back, i think my time in VS was the best period of my life. and will always be. I think i'm a VS Victorian rather than the VJ Victorian. it's just so different.

Open House was a waste of my time, rotting away with JiaHao at the Lion Dance Booth. good thing there was some free stuff..like the apple soda and ice cream..plus the twisties..to help me pass time...it was a formality to man the booth..really no practical use. the haze made my day worst. it shot above 100 again. those indonesians really love burning. luckily, Manchester United crushed Wigan 3-1...it made things better...help me to avoid thinking about PW.

escape from PW was never really a solution...i know i'm in deep shit now. The Written Report is in a huge mess. i don't know how to deal with it. the problems are mounting..getting back results this week too...i'm looking forward to the next weekend...damn, life sucks.

endurance

2006-10-11T20:43:00.000+08:00

i'm doing injustice to my legs. they're falling apart. my muscles are so soft and tender you can grill them and put into burgers. it's only mid-week..and there's double session tmr. the anti-ache cream is my best buddy now. any side-effects?? perhaps.
i'm SO DEAD. but i guess after this week, i'll get used to all these stuff...and i'll be just fine. i'll stay positive.

untitled

2006-10-09T21:19:00.000+08:00

damnit. when i switch on the computer, the freakin' blue screen of death came out..had to reformat again. lost everything on my C-Drive. waste 1 hour of my life. stupid..i guess that kind of sum up my day. morning three hours physical stuff, went home relax..then 4pm got ballwork again. double session kills..lucky today Tan quite KIND..6 plus finish liao....my muscles all cramping up..everyone knows it's "Welcome To Hell!"

yesterday evening went out to chill with some of the 4D guys..played pool, kao pei the Long John Silver "Cleaner" and played arcade. too bad i missed the tomb raider movie on TV..but it was relaxing after spending my saturday with the haze...days like this are gonna be hard to come by. PW Written Report submission is just round the corner. watch your back..

hazy-lazy

2006-10-07T20:59:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning watch kids central, PSI 128. woah, was soccer cancelled. NO. ok, went to school played in some rubbish cup. Tan was around for the first game, luckily he left during the second game. we went all the way to the final, lost on penalties to the ex-VSNPCC people. sad life, we dominated the games with passing and all that, but the opponents defended in numbers. no breakthrough. the whole place hazy like shit. smells like BBQ, but no food. footballers are born to die with some disease (mostly liver failure), i think i'll die of lung cancer..or asthma attack. those assholes in Sumatra better stop burning all that shit, or else the haze will become smog.

anticipating hell

2006-10-06T18:38:00.000+08:00

Schedule for today:
10:00am -Forca football at East Coast Park
1:00pm - Paint field
2:30pm: -Soccer training
6:00pm -reach home
7.00pm -eat dinner
7:30pm: -watch ESPN
......condition:65%

and tmr got friendly tournament in VJ..Tan ask us to play. his instruction was something like the FM 07 teamtalk thing "Just go out down and enjoy the rest of the game." there goes my saturday again, dedicated to football. and damn, my left boot's instep sole is busted. hopefully my absolute will come soon.

and next week, "proper" soccer training will start and it will be down to my willpower. training everyday, monday double session somemore. jia lat. wish me luck

Chill

2006-10-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

great! the promos are over. i'm not going to talk about it. it's time to concentrate on football. starting with the changing of my blog template..torres, one of the hottest properties in the football market. he's got great skil and pace. amazing abilities.
i'm gonna start playing soccer again..Forca's first post-promo training is tomorrow. can't wait to kick off. gonna have to get myself fit again...
and yes, lastly, you need to have java to see the soccer news ticker..enjoy =)

Let It Roll

2006-09-26T22:07:00.000+08:00

now mugging for chem SPA skill A. damn, everyone is taking it at the same time, can't ask around what's coming out..i guess i'll just have to study everything..and tmr's the official start to Promos..GP, 3hr straight. essay and compre. i'm gonna be drained at the end of the day...i've not really prepared for it. but as usual, i'll just do the sports question that the paper throws at me. I think i can handle it. the promos has just started. let it roll. till 5 Oct

the night smells like december
and we're deep undercovers
staking out what could
be better than all the money in the world

ur hazel eyes paralyze my senses
cut me down to size defenseless
im defensless
and i know its late but im waiting
for the moment that ive been anticipating and
i signal u to go where it will take us i don't know

but its over were gonners
its out of our control
and if theres one thing that i know
its that its best to just let it roll
so lets just let it roll

Half-Alive

2006-09-25T17:26:00.000+08:00

mugged with ruiyang and diego in school today. saw a few people i recognised too. seems like everyone is choinging. oh ya, and there was bio and physics spa today. i'm taking mine tmr. hopefully my answers won't be trivial or vague. anyway, thanks kian sin.

caiwang showed us his coincidental nightmare today. like the bungs scandal sia, so many names were revealed. high demand but no supply. competitive demand. terence, you need to pay a high price for her sia..haha

tsun wang joined the forca forum today. weird. don't think anyone will let him join the team. no offence, but robert is freaking lousy.

i realised i didn't study much today. was really wasting my time on SOMEthing. but how cares, i enjoyed it ;).

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own
I don't know if I'm home
Or if I lost the way into your room
I'm spiraling into my doom
I'm feeling half alive
but I know one day
You and I will be free,

To live and die by our own rules,
Free.. Despite the fact that men are fools.

Awake

2006-09-24T12:15:00.000+08:00

just came back from airport this morning. slept for about 4 hours. can't really get enough sleep, cos' my body feels quirky. but there seems enough fuel in my engines to run for one more day. hopefully can finish half of chemistry and do some integration. you've got to set targets, or else you usually won't achieve much.

all that mugging has made me feel so emotional suddenly, feel so attracted to the songs by secondhand serenade. it gives me a great feeling when i hear them and it keeps me going on. i'm an acoustic freak.

i'm looking forward to the promos,: get it over and done with, and i'll be playing football again.

With every appearance by you,
blinding my eyes, I can hardly remember
the last time I felt like I do.
You're an angel disguised.

And you're lying real still,
but your heart beat is fast just like mine.
And the movie's long over,
that's three that have passed,
one more's fine.

Will you stay awake for me?
I don't wanna miss anything
I don't wanna miss anything
I will share the air I breathe,
I'll give you my heart on a string,
I just don't wanna miss anything.

I'm trying real hard not to shake.
I'm biting my tongue,
but I'm feeling alive and
with every breathe that I take,
I feel like I've won.
You're my key to survival.

And if it's a hero you want,
I can save you.
Just stay here.
Your whispers are priceless.
Your breathe, it is dear.
So please stay near.

goin' crazy

2006-09-23T16:12:00.000+08:00

I don't have much to look forward to this weekend, except my notes and books. and sunday night football. Manchester United vs. Reading.

i was slightly disappointed with my performance in PE yesterday. played soccer and i gave the ball away cheaply on numerous occasions. it affected my mood the whole day. and perhaps others tot i was angry. i wasn't. just plain fatigue. my fitness suspect. and sorry Eric, for shouting at you to keep the backline.

can't find a point to start studying today. rotted my morning away. hopefully i'll get my engine running when i go to the airport later. i think my brain juice is running out. i'm running on a reduced 256 MB RAM, and my memory shrunk to 5 GB. maybe? i'll purchase my upgrades with my caffeine shots later. hopefully they're compatitable.

lost it.

2006-09-18T17:45:00.000+08:00

i'm a depressed person now. my ego was smashed. i lost my innocence. can u believe it?? to a girl! just now at the bus stop, jia ying "raped" me when she tried to pull my pants up so high. she ripped off my belt. the metal part come off. imagine the strength she put in..one more move and i could have totally lost my will to live. jiahao and serhua can testify to that. oh yes, and baldy ming too.
JIAYING. you are too artistic. you are too liberal. you gave me a nightmare in bright daylight. don't do it again. and please learn to sit properly =).

Football. The world's greatest game

2006-09-15T17:38:00.000+08:00

I found this video on you-tube. it really impressed me. it made me realise that only those who rise from setbacks can become legends. They deserve to be legends. The Liverpool comeback against AC Milan touched my heart greatly, though i'm not a liverpool fan. remember, football is never boring. The game doesn't end until the final whistle is blown. You must watch this video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hn6Y_f193JY

screw msn

2006-09-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

i study so hard for the whole day. now want to go on msn chill also cannot. what the hell is wrong with messenger? keep saying the service not available. already try logging in the whole night. microsoft...go to hell!